grateful/ alive

For silk nights 

warm waters

turquoise beckoning surfaces shimmering crystals of chlorine light

(inexplicably all ripped) bodies crawling at 10 pm

For children

all have worth

need play

stressful, human

work 

silence

glorious

appreciated more

after playing to a room of 5 year olds

For being alone 

(mostly) unlonely

when acute longing hits

digging deeper than I would if I were in terra cognita

getting beneath the fabric

to discover the inscrutable place

home

For not getting the one thing I wanted 

would have played

LET’S MAKE A DEAL WITH MY LIFE for

surrender coming after WWW, intermittent casualties

-flip a switch-

someone did

ikinari

my heart in technicolor

open window

the breeze’s sigh

out

I

float

!!!

Ahhh...

So much to write about, I don't know where to begin!

Thailand has been truly rocking my world since the start of 2016. 

I went to Shambhala Matsuri, a small Thai- Japanese friendship music festival in Northern Thailand that I had wanted to go to for years. There I fell head over heels for the beauty of Chiang Mai, and as a bonus, a friend and talented filmmaker from Portland who happened to be traveling in SE Asia at the time met me there. I've been traveling by myself more often than not recently, and I had forgotten how much fun it was to venture into the great unknown sharing 

totally new experiences with a good friend.

And my recent trip to Southern Thailand was something else. Krabi found me at quite a nice remote resort right on the beach with a pool, a lovely breakfast and all the creature comforts, Koh Mook was exactly the opposite--- definitely one of the most remote places I've been---- where I stayed in a bungalow in the jungle, got ambushed by a few wild dogs, and spent my time playing ukulele on the lovely balcony (accompanied by various animals)---- hands down though, Koh Lipe, the place that my good Australian and British friends had told me about years ago, was incredible in so many ways. A small island where you could walk everywhere, THE best right on the beach kayaking and snorkeling I have ever seen (and I've been seeking this out for a long time) and all the best local Thai shops, restaurants, and bars you could ever hope for, all in this little lovely place. 

SHHH... don't tell anyone.

(I've already planned another trip there.... :)

on comedy

I don't think that pure laughter comes from making light of things, necessarily... although those moments can be funny in certain ways, for sure... I think that comedy which moves people digs deeper at the individual -- moments in which you thought -- Wow, this is absolutely mortifying--- to a year later, laughing at yourself for being so out of the loop or realising that someone had the wool pulled over your eyes at the time. That after-feeling I think is called MIRTH. I don't know of anything much better--- except for belly laughter... deep belly laughter, only occurring with my best friends at the most unexpected moments. Those times are the times when I witness myself experiencing my life... To me, those are the times for which I have no words.